My plan is that I can finally get a better job and have a career to be proud of with a future. My plan is also to get the heck out of Dodge!! OK OK I know I don't live in Dodge but you get my point I want out of here! My life has never been to stay here and I have already stayed too long!
Now with that being said you may also wonder what that means for my husband and I and I'll tell you the move would be without him....
I feel I have asked for so long for him to change, asked for so long for something to be different and it hasn't changed he has made no effort to make things move in a different direction. It started two years ago maybe even further back that I told him I was unhappy. Yes, maybe every woman turns thirty and says to herself "Is this where I wanted to be when I was this age"? I was miserable knowing that it wasn't and when I told him that he just asked, "Why"? I don't why but it was at this time I started unconsciously pulling away from our marriage. I don't want to blame anyone because I feel that we are both to blame in some ways, and sometimes marriages just don't work!
It's been a tough go around I will admit and I don't recommend anyone just giving up on their marriage when things don't work out but in my case I don't know how to fix it! I've given what I feel at this time is the best to try and feel something tried to get that spark that was there and it just isn't there! I've cried I've prayed and I've talked about it over and over to enough people I just don't think it can be fixed. This IS going to be the hardest thing I will ever do... It won't be easy moving forward in the beginning but somewhere in the future it WILL work out the way it is intended! I don't know what else to say about this matter. But I pray that God will guide me to do what is right, and that what He has intended for me is where I am heading.
Proverbs 3:5