Brian's grandmother is dying. She has lost the will to survive, hasn't eaten anything for over 2 weeks.
I was thinking about her as I drove this past week and the Lord put the burden on my heart to go talk to her about her salvation. I know when the Lord is talking to me, when its a thought I can't shake. So I prayed that the Lord would not call on her end till after I've spoken with her at least once if not more. This process brought me to tears each time I thought about it, (which BTW happened about every time I was driving alone) I struggled with it since I have never really talked to her about it before and I admit I am still new at doing this. So in the days that followed I'd rehearse what I wanted to say in my head. Come on I've heard this and know this my entire life.
For we have all sinned but fall short of the glory of God and only through Him can we ask for forgiveness and ask that our sins be washed white as snow.
Sounds easy right? No! I'm an emotional ball of emotions when I go. Hello!? Have you ever visited someone who is on their death bed? Trust me when I say it is something you would not want to see and it's emotional to say the least, then you put on my own ball of nervousness from speaking so pointedly. I cried, got a hold of myself and told her the truth of our Lord.
I don't know if she understood or heard all that I was saying but I pray that she did and that she is thinking about it I will go again next week or sooner if Gpa calls to say she's nearing the end. But I gotta continue to pray that she did and she has been thinking out it even though she wants to die. I told her I want to see her again I want to see her in heaven where it is beautiful and where Christ is and we will all my in His glory, I hope that last little bit is helping her too?
This was tough but I feel that if she understands me the truth shall prevail and the Lord does want us all!! No matter how much we have sinned! All we have to do is ask for His forgiveness and for His mercy........
Pray for her and that the message will sink and next time I go I speak up louder and she says in her own little way that she wants HIM!!
I think it is amazing that you can build up the courage to talk to her about this important stuff. I will pray for your guidance in your words as you continue to try and speak to her before her end. And also for a peaceful ending to her life here on Earth.
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